Lazing on a Tuesday Afternoon

"Through the haze that is my memory, you stayed for drama though you paid for a comedy. I know I can be colorful. I know I can be grey. I know this loser's living fortunate, 'cause I know you will love me either way." Steel Dragon OK, so it's been more than a couple of days. Or weeks. Alright, FINE, it's been 1 month and 2 days since I've been here. By now you should know that I'm a "fair-weathered" blogger. Look at that...I just blamed you, the reader, for me not being here. Why I don't have the heart for this that I once did, I have no idea. All my life I've enjoyed writing. Stories, letters to people, shopping lists. The least of these, poems, but I have written them. I guess when I mentioned I was coming out of my "funk" a few blogs ago, I didn't realize I'm not totally there yet. I don't really have anything particular to write about tonight. It was just one of those rare occasions that I felt like doing so. But, I guess I should make mention of the last one, like always. First of all, I want to thank all of you who left comments and have been encouraging to me through this process of should I or shouldn't I have surgery. It really has helped me make up my mind. And I have...sort of. Well, I finally made the choice and felt at peace in prayer FOR the surgery. I actually was leaning more towards the Gastric-Sleeve, and that's the one, I'm happy to report, that I'm going to go with....eventually. I talked to the insurance people and apparently bariatric surgery is not something they cover. It's something that our (well, Larry's) employer would have had to pay into in order for us to pay into it, and of course, they did not. Larry, being the dear that he is, said that we could finance it. Where as there is a lot of medical financing to grab hold of out there, it's still not something we can afford right now. The best loan with the best interest rate we found would still be more than our car payment, so....I guess my dream of looking like Beyonce by this Christmas is on hold for now. Maybe by Easter of 2012, huh?? Stay tuned! =) Like I said, I really don't have anything to write about. Though, the more I sit here and bang on these letters, the more I feel I might. Maybe I just enjoy typing, I don't know. Everything seems to be running very smoothly right now. Kids are great. I have the husband of all husbands. I have a small handful of friends who I love and who I try to keep up with. If not daily, weekly. Dad got a good report at the Dr. the other day. Yep. I'd say things are close to perfection. Gosh, now that I said it out loud, it's kinda scary. Like I should be waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like I should be waiting for it all to fall apart. Why am I "shoulding" all over myself? Could it be? That I'm a pessimist? Naah. OK, maybe just a little, but who could blame me? I prayed and prayed for just one "normal" day after the steam of crappy ones I've had. Look at this...I'm finally on a winners streak, and I complain still. Pity: Party of One?! Alright, enough! It's over. My quota in the complaint box is full. Once again, thanks so much for coming and listening to me rant on and on about nothing. I'm trying to get into bed earlier and earlier each time. Last night was 1:30am, which sounds bad, but was actually good for me. It's 12:07 now. I think I'll go post this on Facebook right quick, then head off to bed. Good Night everyone!! =)